why we luv the 1st of july...

ah well, so it's been ages since my last blog. but then can you blame me for being a lazy under-achiever? you, the person who is actually sitting here and reading this? hehehehe... i thought as much! well this blog is all about why we luv the 1st of july (& for those of u who are unaware, its my bday).

24 years and a blog about my bday now, why? : 1st things 1st, im proud u asked me that question. well lets begin with a little "i,me,myself": i like bdays... no, i luv bdays. being endowed with a penis, im obviously incapable of giggling and hugging every1 i see on any close one's bday, but i do try 2 keep a creepy smile on the entire time. hehehehe (freaks the hell outta every1!) this bday i felt a little less alone and its an awesome feeling to knw sum1 is there (but thats all important "maal" for another blog! lol!) that's why i feel like writing this blog.

in the last 8 days ive travelled to 7 different cities, given 3 (exhausting!) phone interviews and celebrated my bday with people in 4 different time zones. moving to California has enabled me to celebrate my bday for 36 hrs (starting india-time) instead of the regular 24... but then, i celebrate my bday for a week. things got a little hectic around the 30th of june (don't ask) and at the end of the day, we landed up with no cake in sight (*sigh*). so i did wat any person in my situation wud do: i cut a "rasgulla"!! hehehehe (its an indian sweet). the fact that my whole family was here, made it awesome.

yesterday saw me sitting through a 5 hour interview. it did my back no good, but definitely helped my self-confidence. b4 this, i was fully preparing to open a vada-pav stall in bombay! (uh, i shudnt speak 2 soon... they havent responded back as of yet! lol!) u knw y i did well? coz i was in my bday mood. its awesome. it makes me feel like i can do things i really cant do on other days; the kinda thing full-moons do to you ;) (fellow freaks of the world: you knw wat i'm talkin abt!!) it makes me nostalgic about those earlier bday parties, when every1 wore cone-caps and ate cake and wafers (that often got squished together!) on those seldom used paper plates. it reminds me of where ive come from, how much ive learnt over the years and how much i miss my close friends.

and when people from all over call,email,sms,scrap,IM to wish you, you knw they miss you too. and u knw u matter.

the best gift i've ever received: 3 days without access to the internet, my computer and for most of this apocalyptic period, even my cell phone. computer engineering may seem like "something i do", but sooner than i knew it wud, its "something ive become"... i am my work. so wired and surrounded by technology, that i could barely breathe without it. i say could, because now ive learnt to look around the room atleast once every 2 hours. although i went half mad, these 3 days were a relief. for those of you who didn't know, cubicles in offices aren't just given so you can have your personal space (although they may try to fool u with this BS! dont u fall for it!), the main reason for cubicles is that with just 3 basic cardboard-like walls, you are under the impression that you have your own office. subconsciously, you feel trapped... here's wat the HR guys dont tell u: you can just walk out! lol! the laptop is this incredible invention that does away with the need of those flimsy 3 walls. while once upon a time my vision was used for looking at the scenery, the horizon, the top-heavy women of california, etc, it is now only used for seeing things in a rectangular 15inch frame. (future girlfriends, and women in general, should make a mental note about this. if im sitting too close and looking down on you, im not reachin for your cleavage, its just how i am now!)

an interesting thought: a pretty new friend (and by "pretty new" i mean, she's "pretty" and "new"! lol!) asked me if i had any wishes and/or resolutions. my wishes were the same as any hungry and horny 24yr-old male: naukri and chhokri! (for those of u who just said "sheee" slap urselves across the face thrice, and read on.) as for the resolution part, i was a lil stunned: i've never made one! then it hit me, like nirvana, or like the apple that fell on newton, or maybe like the bhaaji roll that the vegetable vendor near dadar station once threw at my head... but i digress. i koolly told her: "im as perfect a tushar sahney as i can be, and i dont intend to change that". i'm not perfect, but just perfectly human. this line makes me feel good about myself. with all my shortcomings and all my imperfections... its who i am :)

so why do you care abt the 1st of july?: you care, coz it's a reminder to feel "awesome" every day of that bday week. if you haven't figured it out yet, you care, coz it's why you should luv ur own bday. you care, coz sumbody just put into words, what you've felt for so long: "yes, i'm a lil special on my bday!"

and finally, you care about this date, coz the person whose blog will make you smile & nod long after your'e done reading this, was born on the 1st of july ;)